Let It Go

" forgiveness heals the heart "

JAWAB!!!

kenapa kau hanya diam seribu bahasa

apa maksud di balik semua kelakuanmu
menyakitiku ??? balas dendam ???
mencoba melupakan semuanya
atau...

TOLONG!!!
kenapa tak kau curahkan saja isi hatimu
kenapa harus begini jadinya
sampai kapan kita akan bertahan
pada ego masing-masing

sadarkah engkau
ini hanya akan memperumit keadaan
memperlebar jarak yang terbentang
memperdalam luka yang ada

TOLONG!!!
aku hanya butuh jawaban...

Buka puasaaa yukkkk,,,

Huhuhu...capeeekkk!!! Jam 10 malam dan gw baru masuk rumah... Hari ini kuliah gw libur. Rencananya siang mau ke Ambasador ma nyokap, tapi akhirnya batal karna nyokap pulang udah siang sedangkan gw harus siap-siap mau ke rumah Nandra untuk buka puasa bersama anak-anak TOD community. Tadinya Edo ngajakin berangkat bareng. Tau-tau ujan deres dan depan rumah Edo banjir!!! Edo enggak bisa dateng...HikssSs...jadi gw musti pergi sendiri de...Mana macet banget! 1 jam lebih gw di buncit!!! Sampe-sampe di rumah Nandra di Tebet udah hampir setengah 7 ;(

Rame juga loh tadi...Nandra-Amed, Anggi-TeBe, Doni-Corry, Adith-Kooz, Raymond, Altur, Yosar, Gemblonk, Rangga, Dimsay, Adit Kobo, Krisna, Hendra, Adi n gw ndiri...senangnya kumpul-kumpul!!! Hummm...abis ini di rumah sapa yaa??? =9 Anyway, tadi gw dari rumah Nandra jam 9 kurang gitu. Trus nganter Ayu pulang (rumahnya di belakang Bidakara, jadi kan searah tu...) baru de gw pulang...

Sekarang pingin tidurrrrrrrr...Nite Nite

* Buat Nda, Ngie, Ayu & Corry...Thank U yah udah mau dengerin cerita gw tadi...Luy ya!!! *

Find the key in YOU

Haha...!!! After 2 weeks struggled with exams, I finally have time for my own =D My last exams was 2 day ago. And now I have 2 days of holiday before my first class after mid-term this Friday. I'm going to spend the day watching DVD's!!! Yeeyyy... ;)

Anyway...just for your information, things are getting better around me!! Slowly but sure!! Last week wasn't a great week for me. I broke up with the most fantastic person in the world in the middle of my mid-term test...I lost my wallet (which means i lost *almost* the pictures of me an Him inside the photobox)... Argued with mom... Dealing with someone whom I still have an unfinished business... The point is...It was a rough week for me... So, hell yeah I'm so relief!!

It's not 100% over yet...
But just like I said before...
Just give me some time...
And I'll get my life back on track...

My New World

Lucu de...Biasanya gw ga harus mikir mau kemana ya malem minggu??? Pasti adaaaaa aja rencana pergi. But face it! its different now... All alone again after 1 year and 9 months...

There's no "US"...
There's no "Him"...
It's just... "ME"

Now I have to think some ways to keep me busy for a while (just like my sis told me, "keep yourself busy!!!") and that was exactly what I did today.

Woke up early in the morning with a thought,
"Oh well...another day to get through..."
With a hope that today is going to be fine...
that today will be a better day than tomorrow...

I spent the whole morning watching DVD's...Trus sekitar jam12 siap-siap ke kampus. Kemaren ngajakin Zie bergembira ria bersama ;) emang si tadi di studio engga ngapa2in gitu, tapi yah mending lah daripada di rumah sendiri...setelah buka puasa gw, zie, ma tephen (serta 2 orang temannya) ke monas!!! Niatnya gw ma Tephen mau motret air mancurnya. Tapi apa daya, niat tinggalah niat karena air mancurnya (katanya) selama bulan puasa dimatiin!!! Padahal apa hubungannya coba??? huh...padahal lagi niat-niatnya motret tu setelah sekian lama...
Ya sudah...kita engga lama disana...balik ke kampus dulu trus baru pulang de. Actually the guys still wanna go to play pool but I decided not to join them...

Haaahhh... =]

But you know what??? I'm so glad to have those guys around me during this complicated thing...

*Zie...Tephen...thank u for tonight ;) It was nice to go out with you guys!*

Tryin' to get up

it's almost a week...
well, i'm trying to collect pieces of my life...
solve the unfinished business...
and get my life back on track!!!
Yeaaahhhh!!!

but...will it be that simple???
Oo..Owww...i don't think so dear!!!
some things are not easy to be done
but, i'm sure i can do it!!!
just give me some time...

Don't know what to say...

ku tahu ini jalan yang terbaik untuk kita
meski harus sakitnya terasa menikam jiwa
untuk berpisah denganmu
dan hilangkan semua rasa yang ada
tak pernah terpikir olehku

lupakan saja cerita kita
yang mungkin tertanam dalam hati
memang tak mudah berlari jauh
meninggalkan manis senyummu

kau yang pernah singgah dihatiku memberi damai
namun perbedaan antara kita memupuskan itu
kini ku jauh darimu
mencoba melawan hasrat yang ada
SUNGGUH TAK TERPIKIR OLEHKU

Yes baby...it's all over!!! geez...Some part of my life still can't take the reality that we're not together anymore. Until that happened...I always think, "what am I suppose to do without you???" and now.......
Please...please...keep our promises!!!
You and I...will always be there for each other
You and I...will maintain this relationship
You and I...will make a great friendship
You and I...will tell stories to each other
Yes...
You and I...
Please...please...Don't ignore me just like that...It hurts me already for not being you're special one anymore. And it will totally break my heart if you just walk out from my life.
You know I love you more than anything in this world...You mean everything for me...
But baby...You also know we can not be together...